'You, yourselves, what do you think of, through the course of a day? Very few things, actually.'

'(...)

At dinner, you contemplate the aging face of your wife, so much less exciting than your mistress, but a fine woman otherwise, what can you do, that's life, so you talk about the latest government scandal. Actually, you couldn't care less about the government scandal, but what else is there to talk about? Eliminate those kinds of thoughts, and you'll agree there's not much left. There are of course other moments. Unexpectedly, between two laundry detergent ads, there's a prewar tango, "Violetta", say, and in a great surge you see the nocturnal lapping of the river and the Chinese lanterns around the open-air dance floor, you smell the faint odour of sweat on a joyful woman's skin; at the entrance to a park, a child's smiling face reminds you of your son's just before he started to walk; in the street, a ray of sunlight pierces through the clouds and brightend the broad leaves, the off-white trunk of a plane tree: and suddenly you think of your childhood, of the schoolyard at recess where you used to play war games, shouting with terror and happiness. You have just had a human thought. But this is a rare thing.

(...)'

The Kindly Ones, Jonathan Littell.

Claudia